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I've fallen upon 2010 kind of haphazardly.  I've bought into a lot of that hype that it's a new decade, a new beginning, a new era.  It's been so long since I blogged about anything, that I had to sit and reread all of these older posts to remember where I was, which space in my head, when I felt the need to share.  Then it dawned on me.  I am now where I was wishing I could be at the height of my blogging.  I was missing the midwest, missing my family, looking for a better job, higher pay, trying to figure my way out of my horrible relationship, & trying to navigate all of these changes through waters that I kept very calm from the outside looking in.  All of these changes were a bit of a shock to most of those around me at the time.  I didn't let on too much how unhappy I was in the world.  It's hard to enact change & keep up the status quo at the same time.  I mastered it.  
Now I live in the midwest.  I have a great job.  I get paid almost twice as much as I did two years ago.  I have broken off that horrible relationship once & for all.  I slowly & surely showed my friends & family how unhappy I was & moved on.  
So why does it still feel like I'm struggling? 
It feels this way because, as with all things in life, the road to the goal is often littered with compromise & adjustment.  
I'm resurrecting this blog to flesh out these feelings & these struggles.  Get some perspective.  I need it.  I need an outlet.